3. Peace

3. Peace (song)                                                                                                      

 

chorus

Give me peace

Give me peace

in the dark, Lord, in the dark, Lord

give me peace

Give me strength

in the night

you’re the only one I know can satisfy.

 

verse

it’s a feeling that I have known too rarely

it’s a feeling that I’ve struggled with to see

it’s a feeling that is deeper than a feeling

that I wish could settle deep inside of me

 

chorus

Give me peace

Give me peace

in the dark, Lord, in the dark, Lord

give me peace

Give me strength

in the night

you’re the only one I know can satisfy.

 

verse

it’s a feeling that I’ve rarely known in all my life

it’s a feeling that I long to satisfy

There’s unrest within my soul that I can’t tie up with a bow

and say that it’s okay

 

bridge

maybe I’ve never known what living is

maybe I’ve never known what forgiving is

maybe I’ve never found where I should settle down

maybe I’ve never found you.

 

2. Wonder

2. Wonder (poem)

In my soul is an arrow

that soars through the air

oh the purple sky catches it with golden wind

and arms of silver

I can’t help but gasp at the beauty around

in the nature that I’ve been given but hadn’t

found until it shoved itself in my face

when I needed it most

 

nature never used to impress me.

I hate the bugs, the beetles that crawl on my feet

the fear of fire ants and poison ivy

and ticks, oh God, ticks

and the sun beating down and burning me

just like the fire ants might!

no, nature never impressed me.

 

but to open your eyes is to see the creation

for all that it is

to wake up and smell all the sunshine through cracks in windows

to see humanity living and breathing

existing

searching for joy

like a race

when really, there’s plenty for all.

 

oh, how I wonder at all of this

and

wonder.

 

and it’s not just in nature

I find this feeling

I see it in electricity struggling in the old lamp in my room

in the colorful patterns of my new dress

in vibrations of guitar strings and

cups of macaroni that make a meal in 3.5 minutes and

a child’s laugh and

my friend’s beautiful sculptures and

ambient paintings and

antidepressant medications and

how my brothers look just like my father and

a 500-page book of philosophy

  

so many tiny signs that life is worth living

that beauty is everywhere — I know

it’s cliche —

but have you ever stopped to see

to really see

?

I am broken inside many days of the week

but it’s hard to stay sorrowful when

there are so many things to

wonder about

to wonder at

to wonder how

so many complex things can

come together

to bring peace.



1. Joy

1. Joy (song)                                                                                                            

verse 1

Joy is as simple as saying hello

to a new way of living that I've always known

Deep down inside me, just waiting to spring

forth for any occasion that worry will bring

chorus

Life's a new disaster

Every morning that comes

and it just moves faster

So don't wait for the sun to rise

Joy isn't the absence of pain; it's just a lifeline

Joy will permeate and liberate

and I will rest cause joy is finally mine.

verse 2

A choice of acceptance, of saying "okay"

to my heart-hungry demons and the games that they'll play

A blind, trusting faith that they'll never win

Lets me breathe in redemption and breathe out my sin

chorus

Life's a new disaster

Every morning that comes

and it just moves faster

So don't wait for the sun to rise

Joy isn't the absence of pain; it's just a lifeline

Joy will permeate and liberate

and I will rest cause joy is finally mine.

bridge

Whatever comes, it will stay

Though buried deep

and hid away
(x4)

 

outro

And it will rise just when I think it can't

It's just been laying low and dormant

I find it's as simple as saying hello

to a joy that's been there rooted deep in my soul.


"Oh, to Feel Nothing": An Introduction

"Oh, to Feel Nothing": An Introduction

It was very important to me that these pieces were without dishonesty. One of the things that made this large volume of work so difficult to write, and a reason that it took me almost a year and a half to complete, is that it was emotionally exhausting to dive deep enough into myself and the hearts of others to discover truth worthy of writing about. For each emotion, I wanted to be able to hit home with my readers and listeners; I wanted to not only express the way that I experienced these emotions, but also hoped that they felt them the same way.