Hey y'all. I've been super busy, and struggling to put my thoughts into words. I've had lots of ideas and lots of growth happening, and have been thinking a lot about the meaning of love and the meaning of forgiveness, and the meaning of time and death and God and Christianity and all that stuff. All great blog material, but once again, I can't really figure out how to put it into words. Last time I tried I wrote 4 pages of nonsense about love and it sucked. So basically, all that to say...I recently switched to a double major, adding the major of English focusing on creative writing. I've been doing a ton of writing recently in my Adv. Creative Writing class; like literally at least 4 pieces a week. I've always written songs, but I've been really getting into poetry and it helps me process sometimes, even if it's not really what I'm thinking about. It's fun creative expression for me, and I feel like (hopefully) I've been getting better. So the point of this blog (though kind of abnormal) is to share some of that poetry I've been working on, since I feel like it is a part of me. I'm hopefully going to be posting some of that work in the future on this blog, as a way to get that out there and share my heart and thoughts with whoever wants to read them.
I wrote a project called "Ponderings on Mortality", which is a three-poem series. This is the first of them, called "Clouds." (the line spacing with paragraphs is not working but whatever)
The Rain pours
drips on my Window
slam on the Breaks
I don't care
when I see the car racing towards me I think
admire
wow, what a beautiful Sky
never mind the Blood smearing the Pavement
mixing with the muddied Puddles
in some sickening mating Dance
wow, what a beautiful Sky
if I can keep my Mouth from crying out
I will
wow, what a beautiful Sky
the Sun shines
drips through my Windows
casting Shadows
golden Glares on my Mirrors
the Pills are so close
so friendly
hello.
The Haze that follows will be sensational
maybe I'll see purple Lights
and Gleams
and Stars
in my mama's Eyes
don't cry
wow, what a beautiful Sky
nobody's home
it would be so easy
the Pool is glassy
glimmering
it's so humid
it would feel so perfect
slipping away
never mind the pale white Skin
they would find
wrinkled and lifeless
open glazed Eyes
staring up at the Sun
wow, what a beautiful Sky.